Thoughts of Having a Second Baby

Sam is now 2 years and 9 months old, sumasakit na ears ko sa dami ng lines……………. here are some, madami sa actual
  ” Sam needs a playmate”- puwede makipaglaro kahit kanino
  ” You are not getting younger”- okay lang yun, some get pregnant even on 40’s
  ” You should have a daughter”- that’s my dream to have a little girl, eh pano kung boy uli
  ” He should have a brother or a sister”- he can wait 🙂
  ” Kaya lumalaki matigas ulo ni Sam because wala siya kapatid”- may ganun, hindi ba puwede kaya matigas ulo dahil spoiled kay lolo
 ” You should have a baby na habang kaya ko pa mag alaga (mama’s line)- kaya mo pa yan mama you are still young 
 ” Mahirap isa lang anak, magsisi ka”- 
 But I know I’m not yet ready to have another one, I have to think it first pa talaga,  I have so many things to consider before having another one, 
1. Budget- kaya na ba namin???, CS delivery me my bill before was 65+++K, wala pa monthly check up dyan.And more expenses pag lumabas na.
2. Physical- PCOS me, need to undergo a medication again. I have to be ready again in sleepless nights, more work etc. Having a second baby mothers should be physically fit. Hindi basta basta maging preggy and maging mommy.
3. Emotionally ready- I’m not yet ready, umiikot life ko kay Sam,parang ayoko mawala attention ko sa kanya. Having a second baby, mommies should be emotionally ready baka ang maging ending ay depression.
4. Husband and wife should agree in decision of having another one. It will be easier if you each other support and love. Walang sisihan 🙂
5. Sam needs- A new born baby requires a lot of time, love and attention,but I have to think that Sam needs me also. I have to prepare him first, as of now ayaw pa niya ng brother or sister. Siya lang daw baby namin.
In short, ako ang hindi ready :-(, I want to spend more time with Sam, I want to enjoy him first. I’m not a full time mom, feeling ko kulang ang time ko sa kanya. I want him to feel my love. Feeling ko kasi if I will have a baby agad parang ninakaw ko ang time ko na para sa kanya. 
Maybe next year ready na me 🙂